Gahh ness

Okay it's a weird post title... but u'll understand if i tell you why.

I got an A- for my thesis.
A- isn't a bad result, though i did expected more. Then i found out the marks of my results...
I got 79marks, ONE FUCKING MARK SHORT OF AN A!!! GAHHHH...
It's weird cause I really have no idea if i shud be happy it wasn't lesser than what i've obtained, or fucked up cause it's one mark short of an A. I'm certainly not doubting the examiner's judgement, but if given more time i'd have done a better job. But hey, everyone's given the same amount of time... so no excuses for me.
Sigh.. but anyway, At least it's a high A-. So yeah, i have no regrets.

ANyway... moving on to more important stuff :)

Thank you to Prof. Anis, Daddy of Dance dept University Malaya, my thesis supervisor who had been strict and patient to guide me along this grueling task.

Thank you Poh Gee for staying up with us helping us get through it even when u have 12939558 things to do. Thank you Abang Hamid for generously loaning us your books n giving bits n pieces of advices to guide us when we were all so damn clueless. The both of you are like our guardian angels and i feel we won't make it without the both of u.

Thank you to all my lovely classmates, CW, Xpor, SLing, May, Aiwi, and Ling for supporting each other's back throughout the way, it's alot easier to bear when u know u have companions fighting for the same cause.

Thank you Kak Munie and Kak Nurul for being there to help us on reference books and giving tips on getting started and structuring our thesis.

Thank u Adelle for always giving me mental support n encouragement, it means the world to me.
Thank u Ee Von and Cat for letting me spend the night with the lights on, disturbing your sleep and being understanding for my very fucking irrational thesis-writing behaviour.
And Thank u Jian, for helping me proof read my very salah england. I'm deeply sorry to torture u with my atrocious writing.
Love u guys millions!!!

Thank you to my very understanding family who've been worried sick cuz the daughter comes home losing weight each time they see her yet level-headed enough to not panic and never failed to show unconditional love by letting the daughter do her thing independently.

And thank you, my friends who've lent me a shoulder to cry on when life seemed to overbearing at that moment. Thank u for keeping me sane. You know who u are :)

ok toodles!

mutants n superpowers

Watched X-men the other day...

Me: *drools at the topless Hugh Jackman* Oh how i wish i was that girl who shares his house...

Male Friend: why?

Me: so i get to wake up to a topless wolverine every morning :D

Male Friend: I wish i was that girl too.

Me: SEE! I always knew u had gay tendencies!!

Male Friend: No... so i can play with my boobs all day :D

Me: -__-"

A friend asked me if i were a mutant, what sort of superpowers do i wanna have?
The conversation is pretty pointless la... but since it's not gonna happen so would be kinda fun to think about... hahaha
If i had superpowers i hoped it'd be telepathy or telekinesis...

Mind reading would be kinda cool...
Moving object with your mind is even cooler... no need to lift a finger to do it... hahahaha
*slaps self for being so damn lazy*

But i guess the best would be invisibility... u know why?
i get to run around naked! no need to put on clothes!!! YAY!!

ok bye..

We were as one babe

For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting

That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free

So I'm letting you fly

Cause I know in my heart babe

Our love will never die, no

You'll always be a part of me

I'm a part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no

And I won't beg you to stay

If you're determined to leave girl

I will not stand in your way

But inevitably you'll be back again

Cause ya know in your heart babe

Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time cant erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl

When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh

I know that, you'll be right back

Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my,....my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on (we will linger on)

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

You will always be my baby

I'm listening to repeats of David Cook's version, hoping it would feel better in time...

I guess things are gonna be different as time passes.

I'm gonna miss every single moment shared.

I'll never ever forget how closely bonded we were.

Every experience is always a first cause it's always with somebody different, and believe me, it is special.

Take care. Love always.

kawan kawan

Stumbled upon something someone wrote today. Sigh... it wasn't very pleasant, not about me, but this person was being very rude to someone that is close to me. But i kinda guessed that person will never change his/her/its (to protect this rude person's identity, see i'm such a nice person, how can u not love me?) ways.

Why is it that everything that comes out of your mouth is always deragatory to other people?

Why are u always so mean to other people?

Why are u being such a hypocrite all the time?

Why do u like to put people down to make yourself look good?

Honestly, to me and to everybody that u've shown your true colours, u are only 2 inches tall u know?

Sigh, this stupid ass once told me:" Sigh, Cheng Choo, i don't have much friends. I don't know why they always hate me and avoid me after being friends for awhile... Thank u for being my friend."

oh. fuck.the.bullcrap.

By now, even your so-called BFFE (best friends forever and ever, and it's not me) has turn their backs on u cuz they realised what a fucking hypocrite u are. You only do things for nobody but yourself, and u shud stop begging for sympathy. U know better the reason why u have no friends.

Like i said, and i've told u before, looks and body will deteriorate when we age day by day, beauty only prevails through the heart and mind and the compassion u show to others.

When your not-very-impressive-looks and not-very-impressive-body age by the years, i'm sure u r only left with nobody but yourself. You can be arrogant about it, but at least the rest of us are happy because we have friends, TRUE FRIENDS.

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ok.

thesis submission is 2 weeks away.

gotta be busier than ever. But no worries, i will prevail!

*does the Alexander pose*

i pray that all my other friends will survive this period of shitstress together.

We will all graduate together, and i love all of u very much. Thank u for being a family to me.

on a happier note,

I'm gonna have a long long holiday after April!!!

Wheeeeee~

so for now i need to go stuff my face into books and i won't be back until then.

spongebob wants to lie on top of the paddy fields~

thesis makes me feel stupid

Found something interesting here.

http://jcs.biologists.org/cgi/content/full/121/11/1771

Well, pretty much sums up how i feel throughout thesis writing.
It's all gonna be okay... *hypnotises*
:)

the angels sing

"There can be miracle, when u beileve,
Though hope is frail... it's hard to kill..
U will when u, believe"

Times are difficult, some of us are on the verge of breaking down.
Amidst the stress of meeting deadlines, expectations and obstacles in-between,
there are people who make u feel life isn't so bad after all.
It's difficult now, but it won't stop n we know it can only get better.
Keep up with your hard work... n keep believing that u can.
May u have a wonderful year this 2009. i wish u success, health, love and nothing less than that.
Take care and Happy birthday.

country road, take me home

It's been an emotionally taxing weekend.
I realised about the importance of doing things that kept me really busy but sane, things i haven't been able to do for a long time.
I missed cheerleading.
I missed doing stunts, tensing n smiling like a cheerleader.
I missed everybody in the team. Even those that i'm not particularly close, i still miss them all.
I missed hanging out late at McDs talking about stupid things n laugh like idiots.
I missed Kwang Tung Dance training. I miss everybody in KT, especially Sam's laughter.
I missed being scolded for petty things like not pointing my toes.
I missed doing difficult techniques n sweating my heart out.
I missed Mr.Chong's gymnastics classes.
I missed having pork porridge with Mama Bev.
I missed having girlie nite outs with my girlfriends.
I missed going home having dinner with my family, i miss hugging Spongebob to sleep.
I miss everything i once had before this, and it is still waiting for me but i can't go back until my work is over.
I miss my life, i want it back.
It doesn't even matter if it hurts, or if i've exhausted every ounce of my strengths. It doesn't matter cuz it's my life.
It will all be over soon, i hope.