i have been here many times before...

When you were younger, you hoped to be someone great when u grow up.
You wanna be a star, you wanna change lives, you wanna build dreams...

Then as time passes along, you are faced with expectations, faults, and the harsh realities in life.
Then you realised that sometimes you can't be everything u want.
And sometimes everything you want is not exactly everything u NEED.
Then it comes to a realisation that everybody has only 24 hours a day, seven days a week and 365 days a year.

You hoped that one day everything will fall into place, but somehow it never happens.
Because true enough, u never have enough time to do EVERYTHING u WANT.
You can do everything u want, just not great at it. "Jack of all trades, Master of NONE"
However you CAN be great, by choosing what you NEED. and put the rest to secondary.

But somehow u just grew so attached to the things that you build yourself to be and you can't get out of it.

Things that have intertwined in your life, that can be so potentially good in different ways, but come together and kill you from the pressure of it.

Things that require your attention like a newborn baby who cries to his mother to his every whim, and makes u feel guilty when you attend to it, but deep down inside u know there's no can do about it... because u have only 24 hours a day.

Things that will break your heart and rip you apart if you choose one over the other. Vice versa. Because u hold them both dear to your heart just like the back of your hands.

Things that u know will kill you if you held them tightly and refuse to choose. Things that make u stagnant, not GREAT, but just okay enough to past the day, just mediocre... Things u know that if u choose one, you will be extraordinary in it.

And in the midst of dealing with these things, when overprivilledged ppl come complaining how their lives are miserable, u wanna throw it back to their face and say, FUCK OFF! YOU WANNA BE ME FOR A DAY? I DON'T FUCKING CARE, IF U HAVE SO MUCH MISERY LIVING THE CHARMED LIFE, GO JUMP OFF THE CLIFF. LIFE'S A BITCH, DEAL WITH IT!

Okay, am done ranting. If u think i'm talking about you, no... jangan perasan.
k thanx bye.