Can't get over that first love, ever.

I've been thinking to myself for the past few days...

What if, i've never done cheerleading in my whole life?
What would i be doing?

Honestly, i don't think i'll be doing anything at all. I'll be a nobody doing nothing special without an aim in my life. I really do think i owe it to cheerleading that got me where i am today. Cheerleading has shaped me into a more confident, self assured individual. Cheerleading has taught me that dreams are important and it makes life seemed much more meaningful. I've had the courage to go after my dreams and not be afraid to pursue what i think is right.

Cheerleading has also uncovered and nurtured my passion for dancing, i always used to love watching ppl dance, dreaming about dancing and wishing i could move like the ppl i watch but never had the courage to step up there and do it. Not that i can move very well, my techniques still suck balls, but hey, a first step will always lead to more steps, bigger steps and bolder steps.

My father used to tell me that the best job in the world is the one u wake up every morning with a big smile n eager to go to work. And i'm following that piece of advice very very closely. Every morning i'm thankful that i'm so blessed to be doing what i'm doing now. Coaching cheerleading and dancing is such an exhausting but fulfilling job. The satisfaction of hitting a perfect technique, mastering a double pirrouette or knowing that the kids you coach mastered a skill, is like no other, nothing else beats that kinda feeling. Nobody can make me feel differently about it.

Not even good sex i tell u.... hahahaha kidding...

What i meant to say is, i'm grateful for cheerleading that brought me to where i am today. It's like a first love that last for a long long time after when u first fell for each other.

And if i'm not doing cheerleading, i think i'll be working in a regular 9 to 5 job which i will eventually hate and wishing i had the chance to dance and do cheerleading while watching ESPN at 40 years old.

ughh *shudders in fear*

thanks but no thanks.

on another note, i'm going to cheer camp with my beloved old high school team, Vulcanz in 10 hours time. Gotta go pack now!!! WHEEE~

kthxbye