happy 51st birthday Malaysia!

51 years ago, it was such an important day because the nation has finally declared independence, free from the clutches of foreign authorities. However, the importance of the meaning Merdeka, has somehow lost its significance to the nation, it became merely "another public holiday" to most younger generation.
Don't you agree?

Let's evaluate what the the country means to us, what could've been better. That we could all contribute just by changing our mindsets and standpoint, thus changing our attitude towards the country. We maybe nobody alone, but as a nation, particularly the younger generation, we are something.

So please vote k?

that historical moment

"hey, going anywhere to celebrate Merdeka?"
"yeah i have a date."
"OH REALLY, how nice! Who's Mr.Lucky?"
"Yeah, a date with the idiot box watching a sweaty crowd of Malaysians watching fireworks on national TV. Then another date with my pillow later at night cuz tomorrow still have class."
-________-"""

Yes, i have no life.

Happy Independence Day, Malaysia.

one hand in my pocket

Reborn and shivering,
spat out on new terrain,

unsure, unconvincing,
this faint and shaky hour.

Day one, day one,
Starts all over again,

Step one, step one,

I'm barely making sense

From now i'm faking it, till i'm pseudo-making it,

From scratch begins, again, but,

This time I as I,

Not as We.

"Not As We" -Alanis Morissette-

Fighting a difficult and almost impossible battle, from time to time, wears me out a little bit.

I'm not a saint, i'm not immortal, and i'm only human. Thus, it's only all too normal that i might just bruise and bleed a little.

They say time heals, i can never agree more. Suddenly, things that once seemed so important don't seem to have that weightage anymore. Memories starts to fade a little, and the wound isn't bleeding anymore. Each day seem to be a better day, that i learn something about myself to love.

I can't seem to fathom a person's motives maybe for some of the things people do. But hey, it doesn't matter. I guess they weren't sure of themselves either. Looking back, i think the only thing i could do now, is to forgive myself. Forgive my own mistakes, and know that it's ok, that i'm gonna be fine.

Life still goes on, but with all those unnecessary baggage off the shoulders, the long rocky road isn't so long and doesn't feel as bumpy now. I'm thankful. And i pray to always able to find inner peace and understanding for all the things i do in life. Life is downright unfair, is tough, can sometimes be a real bitch, but life is hell lotsa fun!

I've laid down all my cards, i've nothing to hide, and nothing to lose. I'm going all out cuz there's just so much to gain. If humans were to appreciate and respect the value of honesty, life would have less misery.

I know i'm on the right track now. And thank u, i love u guys for making it possible.

love u all <3

good times goes by fast

Yenn and Lynn, take care ok? It's only been a short short holiday together but it's been damn fulfilling. Outings, practices, competing(woots!), sleepovers, stupid yet ridiculously funny happenings(yes, u know what i mean), we had em' all compacted in one week!!! that's bloody amazing rite?

I hope we have more n more of these to come, and i hope u guys be able to come home soon. I'll be keeping my bestest wishes that u all will have the bestest of bestest time ever in the States.

I can't control how fast time can pass while u two are away, so i'll just save all the fun stuff til u all get back here to join us again. (or maybe me n cw come over instead :D)
All in all, take care n good luck. Someone will be watching over u two :)
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it gets more daunting each day when u have to be in many places at one time.
it feels as if people expects the best out of u each n every single time.
It's tiring. and sometimes u just feel like u don't care anymore.
But nevertheless, thinking of something u said is what really gets me by.

"I never allow myself to feel reluctant, cuz it will get to me n things will never get done"

I need to see u soon.
Yes, time to get on up again!!
Class starts tomorrow :(

Shoo!

hey you,yes you, the one with the dick as a brain.
i'm sorry u had too much emotional baggage u can't handle yourself normally, thus the disgusting behavior by treating women like dirt/slave/crap/anything that can serve ur pleasure yet is worthless.
And it's a pity that u never really utilise what ur parents or ur former educators(dunno if u went to school) taught u, cuz i think u talk trash with your freaking asshole. Oops, i forgot, U ARE A WALKING ASSHOLE. Oh well, pls respect your female counterpart. Talk like u've received education in your life or many will regard u as a caveman n take u away to do further experimentations. Dun be an earsore, and go do something with yourself if u wanna have a life.

On another note, i'm sorry, u can't have me and u will never have me because u cannot afford me. i repeat, CANNOT AFFORD.
I'm the best thing ever that u cannot have. And i'm not the least bit interested in what u can offer.

Go away ok? a man SHOULD have some dignity.

til then

got tagged by little sandra.

Tagged by Schan.

1. Answer the questions below, do a Google Image search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, and do it with minimal words of explanation
2. Tag 5 other people to do the same once you’ve finished answering every question.

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1. The Age You'll be on your next birthday

2. A place you’d like to travel to:

Hawaii!!

...and dance with the hula maidens ^-^

3. Your favourite place:

the bathroom, my favourite thinking spot

4. Your favourite food:

Italiannies's Calamari Caesar Salad *simply orgasmic*

finished with Gelato ice cream!!! :D

5.Your Favourite pet:

So cute can die

Baby Maltese!!

6.Favourite colour Combination:

Baby pink and Black

7. Favourtie piece of clothing

Little black dress, versatility tops my list...

8. Your All-time favourite song:

9. Favourite TV show:

Grey's Anatomy!!one of the only things i'm religious about.

The other thing i'm equally religious too.

Supernatural

10. First name of your significant other/ crush:

:)

11.The town in which u lived:

Subang Jaya

12.Screen name/ Nickname:

Go figure, goddess~

13. Your First Job

Kindergarten teacher

14. Your Dream Job

Dancer, am working on it...It's been a childhood dream

15. A bad habit you have:

Being forgetful, but that makes me the best person to tell ur secrets to :)

16. Your worst fear:

Loss of a loved one

17. The one thing you’d like to do before you die:

Bungee Jump!!

I tag:

-Sue Lynn

-Sue Yenn

-Adelle Soo

-Choi Ee Von

-Kimberly Mehta

Til then.

the loud bitch

Had a convo on MSN with a close friend the other day...
Me=pink font
friend=blue font

"Hey, boring la, what are doing now?"
"Nothing lo.. LOL What are u doing?"
"Nothing, that's why i'm bored."
"Then what do u feel like doing?"
"Have sex." *in a non-chalant way*

silence for a moment...and his response was...

"Wah, u really so desperate meh?"

0.O

Men. Men. Men.
The thing about men is, they find a girl being outspoken with her views n opinion as a threat somehow. What's wrong with being vocal and out about what u really want? even when it comes to things that certain people deemed as TABOO, like sex.

So what? Now men can openly discuss about the size n shape of a woman's boobs and how many women he'd like to or probably did with, and women can't? Fuck whoever who thinks so.

And to those womenfolk who thinks that they are subjected to present themselves as the fairer, or shall i say "WEAKER" sex, do not, i repeat, DO NOT DESERVE TO BE RESPECTED BY THE REST OF US. The rest of whom who stand up for themselves and never allow themselves to the submission of this patriarchy society.

Oh well, I'm just saying what came across my mind at that point of the moment, just like how u guys would do when a hot chick crosses ur path. And it is not like i would do it that point of the moment, same like how u would never had the balls to walk up and say hi to the girl. So yeah, that's my point.

And to the norm, men having sex is similar to validating their social status like it's the most normal thing, "the man thing" u say?
While women on the other hand, are called degradatory names like slut n bitch, and DESPERATE?


My question is, WHAT IS THE NORM? WHO DECIDES IT?
Men? Why men?
Then where do men come from?
This is a chicken and egg situation, but to know your own rights can be a lot better to the society. There will be less abuse, less rape, less bullying and discrimination.

Which i would like to relate not too long ago when i was out with my two favourite sisters in the world, SueYenn n SueLynn. We were out shopping.
Then there's this middle-eastern family (how would i know? The mother was wearing a burqa) came into the show shop we were in. They had two kids, a young girl about 5 or 6 years old, and a son about 3 yrs.

Somehow, the elder little girl kinda made the younger brother cry. Well, kids ma.. sure got bickering and pushing around, that's why they are KIDS.

Then this is the part where u go WHAT THE FUCK??? The father, a fat, ugly, hairy, towering and obese man who is 300 times the size of the young girl, walked over her, without even finding out why the brother cry....

...he SLAPPED and PULLED the FIVE YEAR OLD girl's HAIR!!!!
With his fat pudgy filthy hands!!!

U might wanna ask wat did the mother do? She shook her head with disapproval AT HER FIVE YEAR OLD CHILD, AND FUCKING WALKED AWAY.

I SWEAR, i saw the poor little girl kinda like flew n got off-balance with that blow of a slap.
Seriously, i wonder did that motherfucking son-of-suicidebombers REALLY gave birth to that poor girl. At that point, i almost went over n scoop her into my arms. FUCKING SHIT.

I was so angry i just burst out in the shop and said "WHY THE FUCK DID U GIVE BIRTH TO HER WHEN ALL U WANNA DO IS TO BEAT HER? IS IT BECAUSE SHE HAS A VAGINA THAT IS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH TO BE YOUR KID?"

That mother-fucker left by dragging the weeping lil girl off.

Fucking twisted middle-eastern, makes me think thats how they treat their women. If i were that kid, i'd become a twisted suicide-bomber due to all that twisted discrimination. Seriously, what did she do to deserve such treatment at such young age??

I'm so so blessed that my parents loved me unconditionally regardless of gender or any other reasons in the world. They loved me because i'm their daughter. And i'm thankful, if i'm allowed to choose my parents, i'd still choose my mama and pa, WITH NO ABSOLUTE DOUBT AT ALL.

I think if i'm not pursuing performing arts, i'd be a child or women's rights activist. SERIOUSLY.

And in this one post i've used the word SERIOUSLY, like about 4 times already. Seriously. (which further makes it 5)

WHOOT~ imma so heated up by this thing, i can go on n on with this if my sleepy eye permits me too.

To conclude, i'm not the kind of girl who would sit around and wait for men to ask me to dance, or simply just wait around. If i like someone, i'd go ahead and tell them. Life is too short to be waiting around, and i see no point of waiting aimlessly. Simply because i'm responsible for my own happiness. But that also does not mean that i'd go for any type of men laaa.... hahaha What i'm saying is, there's nothing wrong in being able to speak your mind and be bold about it. U are in charge of your life and no one else.

If u'd like a conversation on this, i'm up for an intellectual debate :)

Well, on the other hand, it's holidays now! YAY!!! Anybody wanna go for a hot date?

kthxbye

til then.

twentycents worth

Not too long ago...

A dance competition organized by Taylor University College. We got to know about it around a week before the event. (Note we: me, CW, yenney, alyna, jun kang n wern sern) So we decided to join just for the heck of it. It's overall a quite cool event cuz they had DJ Patrick oliver from Euphoria spinning really cool beats throughout the nite.

oh well, i know wat u wanna know...

hehehe...

WE GOT 2nd PLACE!!! YAY ness!!!

It was a casual and fun fun thing that we didn't actually expected anything but just have fun. So it was a really good surprise in the end :D

More pictures to come soon. Waiting to get it from yenn n jk.

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Oh well, since this is a really happy post, might as well make it happy all the way.

Was at a conference today, there was a break so i decided to compile a list of things that will make me happy.

sunflowers

warm towels on a rainy day/ night

kittens, puppies n furry animals

hot chocolate

a favourite song on the radio

smiling babies

finding loose coins/notes inside pockets when u least expected

getting a good parking spot

smooth traffic

bear hugs

kiss on the forehead

Yup, these are one of those days. The good days.

And in case u were wondering what's with the title of the post, it's the name of our "dance crew", Dua Coopang (dua kupang). Hahahahahahaah!!!! told u it's a fun fun thing, chill la!

til then.

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I'm thinking about u.
And i can't get myself to sleep.
It's 5 am in the morning.
And i'm still blogging.
Class is at 11am tomorrow.
I'm fucked.

Sheesh..