Flashbacks n thoughts of the very last day

hmm... finally...

The last day of the year.

Time passes us by so fast sometimes we don't even know it had just slyly slipped away. We only realise it when we OCCASIONALLY sit down and think about it. And that's if we DO take some time to think about it.

This has been a very meaningful year for me. Many things happened this year, which i would never ever trade for any other as it has given me a different outlook and experience. Let me recap.
I've been disappointed, backstabbed, heartbroken, broken down, injured physically, suicidal, wasted at some point...but there were also the good things behind the bad...I've competed in Japan representing Malaysia in cheerleading, fell so deeply in love with my passion-Dance, learnt from fantastic teachers, gotten into Dean's list (YAY!), did ballroom dance classes, discovered and gotten close with bunch of very very wonderful friends (u know who u are :D), and most of all, SURVIVE all that i've been through this year.

I'm pretty happy about all that i'm able to achieve this year, so i shall aim a little bit more next year. I personally don't believe in resolutions, because there's a tendency to break or forget them. Instead, i call them GOALS. You can't break or forget a goal, u may just only miss it if u don't score ;)

yeah... so
Goals for 2008

1. Improve grades.
2. Save more money. Make more money.
3. Sleep early.
4. Learn something outside of uni. (e.g latin ballroom/vocal lessons/new language etc)
5. Less junk n fast food (only once every two weeks, suppression period in between shall gradually increase)
6. Read more books. My gramatical errors will soon pile up and drown the world wide web. so...Get nerdy,babeh!
7. Allow myself at least 2 holidays on my own expense with people i heart. That's why i need to always refer to GOAL No.2
8. Go overseas at least once, just to learn/check out/experience anything related to dance, arts or cheerleading. That's why i ALSO need to always refer to GOAL No.2.

I admit i still need to improve in many many things, but i know for sure that i've learnt and grew up a bit compared to the year before. I'm happy the way things are now, just because...

• i have food, WARM FOOD, waiting on the table at home when i come back (I love my folks, really)
• i have clothes on my back (although going commando only invites u to be raped, killed and have cucumbers/brinjals/banana/cylindrical objects shoved into your u-know-where)
• i have a home to go back to, a room on my own.
• i have a shoulder to cry on, anywhere, anytime.
• i have a study course n future career that can continually make me smile when i think about it. It is a big thing when u love ur job n don't feel that waking up in the morning for work is a chore. Really, just ask any working person.
• i have people around me who loves me :)

And based on the reason, i just simply have reason to live. So come what may to 2008! Happy new year everybody! May the next year be a better year for improvement, achievement and contentment.

Have a wonderful holiday before the first working day of the year :)

sorry...i know i'm such a killjoy

til then

Jeng Jeng Jeng~

Today, i went out with EeVon, AhDiao n her sister,(real sisTAH ok? REAL one. *inside joke*) Michelle to Mid Valley. The sisters wanted to go for a haircut.. erm more of like a hair makeover, n with lots of pestering and huge puppy-eyed bugging by adelle, me n ee von oso sampat tagged along.

Well, actually i already wanted to do something with my head of hay for a long time but couldn't find the time. Or either, UNINSPIRED (read: lazy) to do anything to it. Since i have a bunch of friends coming, for the fun of it, why not?

And adelle had been bugging us for ages to "join the dark side"...

EeVon: hmm... i feel like doing something to my hair la...

Adelle: Cut short la.
EV: i dun want... tak sampai hati

A: Cut short nice ma.. short hair like mine :D

EV: -___-"

on other ocassions...

Me: I wanna change my look..sien adi
A: huh? Cut short la, cut short!! *jumping enthusiastic bubble*

Me: dun want la, short hair looks funny on me

A: won't wan... u shud try :D cut short!

Me: -____-"

And MANY occassions...

Me: I feel like trying XX hairstyle la... wat do u think?

A: Cut short la...
EV: hmm... not bad, can try. I feel like trying that one....

A: Cut short, cut short!

Me n EV: -_____________-" *super mata sepet look*

Then today, we have Adelle and her league member of the dark side, Michelle. Two hearts, 10,000X the power.
A: Cut short la.

M: pretty ma, hot also.. (something to that sort) *with the same enthusiatic jumping bubble*

We went to LMC, a trendy looking salon at MidValley near the cinema. The stylists and the staff were friendly and patient though we asked lots and lots of questions. (i'd give credit to that cuz i find asking a lot of questions can be irritating) So here are some pictures... well, some of it are those i risked my life taking it...

a very sporting Michelle with 2 "mock-pigtails" and a giggling Ee Von behind

A very tulan Adelle, with Jien-alike hair :D

Well... i know u've been anticipating how i'd looked like.. Apparently, i didn't exactly took picture of the process cuz i was sneezing like a bitch due to a cold i caught in the morning. So i only managed a before n after picture.

Here's a recap of how i looked BEFORE

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TAAH DAAHHH~

i present to u my shamelessly narcissistic Japanese alter-ego, Michiko.

"Konichiwa, watashi wa Michiko-san"

*poses the infamous 125* *then proceeds to vomit*

What do u think? hehe...

Til Then

not so happy cheerleader

I HATE BROKEN PROMISES!
I HATE HALF-HEARTED APOLOGIES!
I HATE INSENSITIVE PEOPLE!
I HATE MEANINGLESS EXCUSES!
I HATE STUPID PEOPLE PULLING LONG FACES LIKE I OWE THEM!
I HATE INFLEXIBILITY!
DON'T SHOW ME FACES LIKE I POISONED YOUR DOG OR OWE U TEN MILLION BUCKS.
I WILL FUCKING SLAP THE SHIT OUT OF U. DAMNIT
I HATE I HATE I HATE!!!!

I DAMN FUCKING PISSED NOW I THINK I SHOULD GO TO BED.
my fucking kneecaps are screaming bitches again. cibai. it's not making things any better.

ROARRRRRRRRR!!!!

lalala~!

wheee~!!

I'm on DEAN'S LIST!!

LALALALA LALALALA~~

til then

That's why it's called a crush

To me, crushes are the most irritating thing to a person's mind.

It's the feeling u can't get enough of that certain someone, yet u will never want that person to know about how u feel. It gives u the rush of euphoria WHENEVER and WHEREVER u see or even just hear about that person. And everytime that person does something nice for u, that feeling just gives u a one-way-ticket to heaven. (don't deny, i'm sure u have been there at least once in your lifetime)

But it makes your world crumble (sometimes feel like disappearing) the moment when....

• he is in love with someone else
• he TELLS u he's in love with someone else
• he is taken
• he doesn't know how u feel (probably never will)
• he fell for your best friend/sibling/mother etc.. (don't laugh at the last option, it could happen)
• he KNOWS how u feel for him and avoids u, and falls for ur best friend/sibling/mother etc.
• he didn't turn out to be what u think he is

yeah.. it's shitty.. welcome to life.

I once had a crush on this guy way back when i was in secondary school. He was a senior whom i met during a stage performance for an annual school activity.

It wasn't exactly love at first sight as i hadn't had feelings for him when i first met him the previous year. He was more of an annoyance to me. He didn't talk much and always come late n leave early during the first few practices so i thought he was a bit cocky. Benci cocky people!!

Spending alot of time in weekly practices made me see him in a different light. We found out we had many things in common like interests, hobby, outlook in life and much more. Oh well, my feelings for him developed throughout the practices because of all the good qualities i see in him. He was smart, mature, charismatic, funny, athletic, caring and hardworking. I found out the reason that he was always late n left early cause he works part-time as he didn't want to burden his family. (omg,how not to like, u say leh?)

Well, almost perfect eh? But despite being such a perfect gentleman, i'm sure he KNOWS he is very much sought after. (all guys very perasan wan, they sure know..even if they r not they will think they r, trust me.) He was LOYAL. Yes, he is already taken. He never flirts with anybody in the group, and he doesn't simply say sohai things like "u got bf o not?" or "i will miss u one oh, u don't miss me meh?" to any girl. He is respectful with his words which made me fell for him even more. And no, as much as a stereotype to all guys like him, he is perfectly straight.

I didn't found out about his gf through him, as he never told me about his private life (SEE! somemore don't kiss n tell!), but eventually by word of mouth n the almighty WorldWideWeb aka friendster, myspace bla bla bla... (yes, i stalked him onlilne, ahahaha...)

So yeah, the moment i found out, i've decided i will keep my feelings a secret n take it to the grave with me. I will NEVER bring myself to steal other people's bf. And besides, relationships might not work out sometimes, and it's because u find something about the other person which is bad/annoying/irritating/hurtful. Which means, that person whom u deem to be so beautifully perfect isn't what he seemed to be. I secretly vowed i will make him my eternal PERFECT CRUSH. (ya la yalah, fucking childish i know... i'm only form 2 ok?)

Practices prior to the event was getting more n more tough but somehow it became an escape from classes and homework. Everybody was looking forward to practices every end of the week. Same for me, but i was hoping to see him instead. Good time passes fast and finally it was all over, and during the final day of the performance, he confessed that he admired my maturity and passion, and that he was comfortable working with me.

Can u imagine? I can bet u i flew to the moon and back a dozen times just hearing that. But i still didn't tell him how i feel. (i know, i'm a big fat loser.) i just let it pass by responding with a smile, more of a silly grin.wtf. -___-"

Many many years passed, i decided to surf on friendster on one particular day. I stumbled upon his profile page. I tell u ah, i can blush the first time when i see his page, like his pictures r looking back at me. wtfknnkkn. My heart still skips a beat when i see it now. Damn stupid i know... Then i saw it.. his status...CURRENT STATUS...

Male *age censored* single... SINGLE

He is single... He broke up with his long time sweetheart.

Suddenly those old feelings started burning like a flame, and my head was temporarily messed up for awhile with many silly thoughts of there's a chance we might be together, holding hands bla bla crap...

My heart flutters awhile. And finally, i still stood my ground. He will always be my perfect crush, cuz he will be an example of hope that there are good guys out there. Yes, my perfect crush, i wish u well and happiness, and thank you for being who u are.

Thought of the day: If u like to simply pass judgements just by reading some things people write, or before u knew what actually happened, i would advice u to click the red, small, X button on the upper right corner of the page and never come back again. and if u wanna be rude to leave rude comments, i will delete them :)

til then

p.s/ i will blog about the trip soon, cuz no pics yet... very boring wan...

yeah right...

yeah right...
just got back from vacation n there's loads to update.
now i gotta go for duty in KLpac soon, so...

til then

insomnia

I lay there for what it seemed like the longest hour, tired, restless yet sleepless.

I don't know if what i'm doing is the right thing, i can't help it yet creeping sense of regret keep washing over me of what i've done.

My heart wants it so badly, yet my head tells me no. Irony? hell yeah...

Is this going to be real? Or will it all go away like a dream when its time to wake up?
Is it worthwhile? Or am i just wasting my time?
Would it be different if i didn't say a thing?

I think i deserve better... and sometimes i feel it's just too easy for you if i just give in.
Don't give me reasons to doubt the things that i've told you.

sigh... the time of the month just seems to amplify all those problems that we usually brush away....

what is your health goal?

okay... a continuation of the previous post explaining the source of my anger...

I received a call when i was enjoying my much needed sleep (which i always need, ALWAYS!) A man speaking very fast and in very fluent english immediately started pouring in information as soon as i picked up the phone. He was so persistent i just had to listen. The convo goes like this...

Man: Hi, is this Ms.Lim Cheng Choo?
Sleeping Beauty: Err.. ya..? *half asleep* Emm.. who iisss thiss?..umm umm.*clears throat*
Man: Oh yes, i've been trying to get to u.... bla bla bla... CONGRATULATIONS, u've been offered a complimentary VIP bla bla bla bla....
Sleeping Beauty: HUHHH?? *tries to regain conciousness* Whaaaaat? mmm....? Who is this calling again?
Man: Excuse me, this is *censored*, our program offers different kinds of package bla bla bla BLA BLA BLA.... May i know what is your health goal? maybe tone, slimming, bla bla bla bla....

Immediately i knew they were calling from this gym near my home area. I've been trying to avoid their calls for many MANY MANY months because i didn't have the time to go (really, i'm not lazy) and i'm ALREADY have a membership of another gym. And they just wouldn't stop bugging -___-"

Sleeping Beauty: oh... I'm an athlete and i work out every single day. So... ya...
Man: Oh great! *sounded falsely enthusiastic* Then maybe our Hatha Yoga would be great for u, bla bla bla ... flexibility... bla bla bla...
Sleeping Beauty: Where are u calling from? *losing patience*
Man: Oh we got your number from our database.. blablablaBlaBlABLAAAAA.... (Still dun wanna tell me) When will u be free to come over and collect your VIP whatnots...bla bla bla... can make appointment...bla bla
Sleeping Beauty turned beast: Hmm.. Then where can i collect it? (just to reconfirm where they were calling from)
Man: Oh just come over at *censored* gym *censored* branch, when will u be free? Tomorrow?
(wah damn kau persistent...)
Beast: I'm not free this week.... how bout sat la? after lunch. (cincai make one appointment)
Man oh ok, then i'll see u then... this is my number- 01********.
Beast: ok thanx, bye.(hangs up before he says any second word)

The things is... I HATE TO BE DISTURBED OF MY SLEEP!

And i've been giving different excuses just to avoid them. I bet some of us would've received calls on offers to membership, free gifts, VIP passes and trails... bla bla bla... which is kinda annoying when u don't need it, and especially when they call at the times when u have a million things to do. (SLEEP is a million things to me, okay?)

I'm sure this buggers will receive a certain commission or incentive when they get one person to join under them, therefore the persistence and never-say-die attitude which calls us until our phone explode (pao kei). Since gym and health centres are like the "in" thing now because the society has become more health concious (thank goodness to that :))

Then suddenly every tom, dick and harry goes to gym and has a gym membership. Next, they decided to expand horizons by calling the friends and family of those tom,dick and harry.... urging them to all join the dark side -___-" It's ok if it's a willing party, but it gets irritating when the other party isn't interested and have been giving more than enough (read: ifyoudon'tgetityouhaveskinthickerthanhippo) hints.

Trust me, this irritant can cause bloody murder.
So i've compiled a list of....

Top 10 answers to these calls/on how to tackle this irritating matter when they just don't get it.

1. "err, salah nomborrr la dik... nek tak bisa, tak bisa... huh?" *faster hang up* This works if you know different accents of different language.
2. "Ok ok... (cincai make an appointment and don't turn up)"
3. " The person u r looking for is dead..." *breaks down and cry then faster hang up*
4. " Oh really? So i assume u work in a gym? U must be fit.. i like fit man/woman... Wanna come to my place? Or u want me to come find you? What is your number? Where do u live? (keep asking very personal questions till that person hangs up)" Tip: Add in occasional snigger and perverted giggling while asking questions.
5. "I already have a gym membership, and it's free. thank you, Bye, don't call back."
6. "I got no money.... but i got no money worr.... i cannot pay membership fee... Maybe u can offer me a job in the gym? huh? got job or not? got or not?" Keep insisting they offer you a job.
7. "I'm dying of third stage [insert incurable disease] in three weeks time... *breaks down and cry* thanx for making me feel better la *cries even more*" Please cross your fingers and touch wood when trying out this one.
8. "I'm moving away...somewhere between the Land of Joy and Field of Contentment... lalala~ *laughs and hangs up*"
9. "I know what u did last night.. and i'm watching u... i'm watching.."
10. "erm..my brother/sister is in jail for murdering his/her gym instructor. Can u call her/him back after 35years when he/she is out of jail? Or u want me to pass the message? I'm visiting him/her next week. erm.. hello? hello?"

PHEW!!! finally got it off my chest... k laa, am gonna go sleep now.

*transforms back into sleeping beauty, smiles sweetly, curtsey and puts back the parang into the toy chest*

nites,til then.

Legend indeed

I went to the movies with the boys yesterday at GSC 1 utama and watched this movie. When i first saw the poster, i had second thoughts about going cause the title itself sounds kinda unimpressive and lame. But since the whole bunch of us were kinda no life (a.k.a bumming around) since it's holidays, so we just went for it.



BORING? HELL, i was DEAD WRONG!!!! The movie is freaking awesome.

A lil review on the movie...



It's about a military scientist, Dr. Robert Neville, who is trying to find a cure for a deadly disease caused by a mutated gene virus. Usually in ANY movie plot, the problem always starts because of an idiot. An idiot (actually is a dumb scientist) who tried to play God alters the gene in the measels virus so that it can cure cancer.

But shit always happens, so cut the story short, many people were infected by the virus n became violent and aggressive flesh-eating zombies who LURRRVE the smell of blood, n for the remaining who were immune (somehow they r immune la...dun ask y,go watch the movie.) were then eaten by butt-plug ugly zombies.

The movie shows how Dr.Neville survived the zombies and managed to make life bearable with the company of oh-so-adorable german shepherd, Sam. The plot puts the human body n mind to it's most vulnerable situation,and test the limits of a normal human's capabilities which brings a whole new meaning of "survival of the fittest".



If u like action, humour, horror, Will Smith, X-men/mutant element, muscles *ahem*, adorable canine and plot that makes sense (oh thank heavens!), go watch this movie. It's better than Resident Evil (i'm sorry, i adore RE series, but it's even better when the character is less powerful n more human), trust me.



damnit... in a super duper bad mood now, will update very soon about the cause of the foul mood... *walks away one hand clenching fist, the other with parang*

till then.

uncalled for drama

Today has got to be the most dramatic cheerleading practice i've ever had. EVER.

Charm's practice venue used to alternate each month between Bandar Utama and Subang Jaya at 7.30pm. Then this month, dear beloved captain decided to have it in Subang Jaya as we found out the lights in the park were functioning again. yay!!~

Somehow due to the monsoon season this month, it has been CONSISTENTLY raining every evening throughout the week. It only depends on whether if it is heavy or not. But hell, we still train regardless... Today we prayed hard that it won't rain, at least not heavy, so we can practice in Subang, but sometimes shit does happen. It rained. And the lights at the park were off.

Dark, wet, cold and windy... damnit.

Practice wasn't canceled because members from afar and near were already on their way, if not, arrived at the soaking wet n STILL RAINING park. So captain decided we shud stay a while more til everybody arrived then we can decide where to go for practice.

We tried to search for nearby sports centres and multi-purpose hall but they were either occupied or closed. Our final resort was Celeb Fitness Gym, which we were a bit reluctant cuz the ceiling was a bit low and not suitable to do higher level stunts. Oh well, beggars can't be choosers, so StephT called up the gym to book a studio. Someone picked up and guess what he said?

"Erm, we can't let u book the studio, cuz it is suspected that a BOMB is in the building, the bomb squad is here and all, and the building is shut down for inspection. So... ya... :)"

WHAT??!!
So drama -__-"

So in the end we turned back to the park, which thankfully the lights were back on and the rain began to subside to a teeny weeny drizzle. But because the floor was super wet and slippery, captain suggest we do something else together.

"Let's talk about FEELINGS... :)"

hahahaha it came true laa, STock *inside joke*

Oh well, we shared our experiences, expecially to the juniors and newcomers, then our goals and aims for the team. It was inspiring and somewhat reflecting on what we've really done for the team. HMm... i'm semangated and getting back on the cheertrack now :D But 1st.. i gotta turn in early for the night to rest my sore knee... hehe so i'll be ready to rock those stunts soon, VERY VERY SOON.

ya.. so til then.
*T-O-U-G-H, NOPE! THAT'S NOT ENOUGH!!**did a high V + a high kick b4 walking away*

pardon the sampatness, but it's my blog, not yours, so shutup

Pledge to save the soon-to-be-pig

Top 10 signs you have just gained excessive weight:

1. Ransacked your closet for hours cause everything u wear makes u look pudgy.
2. Then u finally settled for something dark in colour/ something black/ something baggy or just rather not go out.
3. You dread the bathroom scale. You just have that feeling n ur instincts are always accurate.
4. When you look in the mirror one day and find that u look a few inches shorter.
5. When your friends tell u that u look a few inches shorter. Trust me, friends always say the nicest things
6. When u find climbing up staircase is tiring when u r only in your 20s.
7. When u r a girl and u suddenly lost interest going shopping cause it's frustrating that everything u try on makes u feel like a million pounds. (as in weight not currency, darling.)
8. When u had doughnuts 3 times a week and ice-cream almost every single day.
9. This is a bit mean, it is when u find people who were previously bigger/taller than u, seem to shrink when u stand beside them.
10. Is when u read this list and find more than half of it IS happening to u.

Yes, it is happening to me... Dear good people out there who still loves me, please please please kindly donate to "SlimHerDown- TheChengChoo liposuction trust fund" to help me regain my self-confidence. Thank you.

And if u never see me again, it's not that i've disappeared, but i've only transformed to a pile of lard that's waiting to be churned to butter. I still love u guys.

Damnit... *thinks out loud* 'need to hit the treadmill,yes yes...'

*this post is inspired by the weird encounter of the talented blackjetta :)

til then

a letter to the toothfairy

Dear Tooth Fairy,

I had been having some mysterious headache and dizziness a few weeks ago, and i've found out the true reason behind it.

I've been teething like a baby. wtf -___-"

It turns out that my wisdom teeth (yes, both sides) is growing out and pushing towards the back of my cheeks which in turn giving me weird headache i cannot explain. Normal teeth usually grows downwards for the upper jaw and upwards for the lower jaw, but some how my wisdom teeth happen to grow backwards pushing against my jaw.

Therefore i went to the dentist and he advised me to take it out as it will cause inflammation n infection in the long run cuz it is constantly scratching my gums. so i went there today to lessen my future agony. I brought er... no, begged CW, the very-sleepy-yet-very-willing-pillar-of-support to be there as my cheerleader :) Bless that wonderful friend, i would have been more scared if i were alone. So here are some pics... Nope nothing gruesome, i didn't take pics of the process.

The dentist is nice and he was very comforting and gentle throughout the extraction. He explained in detailed about my conditioned and how he was going to take it out. He even intentionally tune to LightFm, playing soothing songs while he did the extraction. hahahaha...

Plus, he's cute :) thank heavens i'm going there again for my second extraction o.O

Oh well, Tooth Fairy, since my tooth is pretty healthy and the reason i took it out was because i had no space in my gums to contain it, i'm giving it away for no less than rm100. So yeah, i'll be waiting at my bedside for u to come tonight. toodles... Local Anaesthetic is making me dizzy...

til then.
Love,

choochootrain

AhDiao's 21st and Schan's 18th

Last tuesday, it was Adelle a.k.a Ah Diao's (inside joke HaHaHa... ) bday. She decided to treat us lunch at TGIF.



The whole celebration was in short- FABULOUSLY AWESOME :D

We all had lots of great food, great time, and great laughs. I wanna make a BIG shoutout here to wish the BG(bday girl) @ Ahdiao....

Happy 21st birthday

May your life be blessed with joy and happiness,

and somehow comes in the form of [ type name of any hollywood hunk of your dreams ] to spend a lifetime with you :D

hurrah! u're finally legal, babe. I'll join u at the casino next year.. shaks~ -____-"
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Another birthday shoutout to

Sandra Chan @ SChanDaMan

Happy 18th Birthday

We surprised her by pretending we all forgot (a bit cliche` but shutup, it's not YOUR birthday, n we do it the way schan likes it :)) Then we (Mel and Jeremy) lured her to the park by giving a stupid excuse he lost his phone at the park and we need to look for it. she didn't suspected anything until when this silly SW wore his tough stuff t-shirt (Charm's t-shirt with Bold white printing which can be seen vaguely in the dark AND which we wear to every general practice), then schan asked:" Hey, is that tough stuff shirt? Someone's wearing our shirt!One of our cheerleader's there in the park is it?"

-____-"

Oh well, it was a surprise after all. It was a gathering of schan closest friends which ALMOST (almost i tell u) drove her to tears. Oh well, all's a happy ending. I didn't take any picture cuz i DON't have a camera.. *hint hint* :D

Anyways, i hope both bday girls enjoyed their birthday. oh ya, congrats for stepping officially into adulthood, girls :)

til then.