i'm tulan with the toothfairy

omg. wisdom tooth is growing and it fc*king hurts like a bitch. been having mild fever for 3 days going on 4 now...

bitch.

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WARNING @ DISCLAIMER: This is a serious ranting post, if u have an allergic reaction to rants, please click the little red box with an X on the right high corner of the screen. The blogger n blog management is not responsible for any mishaps or chaos caused by reading this post. And all characters involved are fictional, all coincidents are coincidental. So in this case, if u think i'm talking about u, no, no, no, i'm not.
No. I am not.

I'm not a babysitter.
I'm not a tuition teacher.
I'm not a mother.
I'm only attached, married and committed to work, study and family(which solely includes blood-related family members), nothing more nothing less.

Asking stupid questions makes me angry.
Giving me emotional blackmail makes me more angry.
Assuming something i'm not makes me even MORE angry.
Assuming then expecting something back from me makes me wanna blow up in your face n tell u: I'M NOT, IT NEVER WILL BE, NOT NOW AND NOT EVER, GET IT? GROW UP! STOP PISSING ME OFF BEFORE I PUNCH U IN THE FACE!

*balloon deflates*

phew.

boys called u sexy n u don't care what they say

hey hey! i'm back!

but sorry... pics need to be uploaded 1st.
I took a whoppin'-big-ass 500+ pics for this trip, hence, editing may require some time.

Ahem*reasons to procrastinate*ahem

anyways, had a funny convo with my mum when i was browsing through my pics on Facebook...

Mom: Wow, u can be a model lo.. (exclaiming when she saw some pics)
Me: cannot la ma, i'm so fat, compared to those sticklike models, like pig only...
Mom: No ma.. sometimes the photographer may want something different ma. *giggling*
Me: -_____-" what do u mean "something different"? means u say i fat la?
Mom: No, No, No... They may want a different image ma... like those cute babies, round n cuddly...
Me: wow, ma, thanx ar.

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i know i'm not stick-thin, but i'm definitely not fat. Just a little on the curvy side. I'm not ashamed to admit it. Womanly curves are good :D

I think body image is something that many people have difficulty embracing it. It has become one of the main reasons to some very unhealthy lifestyle n eating habits. Which also contributed to the rising of eating disorders plaguing young people especially females. It is very stressful to be constantly under peer pressure that size negative zero is the best size to be in.

It took me a long way to come and accept myself n to love n respect my body the way i do now. I'm thankful that i've been through the rough patches in life to get to where i am today. oh well, it's never too late to start living for yourself, nobody but yourself. Life is too short NOT to give it our best.

Start lovin' the curves, babeh!
til then.

this post is just for the sake of pending the delay of my picture upload :D

randomness

hmm.. there are things about myself that i've come to discover, or some really close people of mine discovered n told me about them.

let's see...

I have a peculiar (i wouldn't call it bad cuz it hasn't done any harm to anybody) habit of reading messages on people's t-shirt. And when i can't figure out what the words are, I STARE. Which sometimes causes me some unnecessary attention. People checking me out checking on their t-shirt -__-" oh well, slogan tees are meant to send a message, don't they?

I chew my nails when i get nervous, alot.

I leave nailmarks on my body when i get nervous too, ALOT. yes, i'm a sado-masochist, bring on the pain, babeh!

I prefer phone calls than smses :)

I hate motorcyclist, especially those that take their lives for granted just because the government imply a rule that gives them handicap in ALL cases of accidents. Stupid motorcyclist who cuts through the left lanes, speeding rempits, hit and run, and oh-God-Forbid! snatch thieves!!! Hate them all!

oh, and those parents who carry three to four kids (without helmets) on one measly little motorbike. Call me heartless, but if u don't have enough money to get a car, why did it even cross your mind to have so many kids? And why take them all on a bike? okay enough about motorcyclist...

I show affection by sniffing on a person's shoulders. not the pervish kind ok?

oh well, unless if that person looks like Jensen Ackles :D

I'm a sucker of romance, flowers and old-school chivalry :)

hmm..4 more hours and i'm gonna be away for a vacation, whoopie!! and i'm too damn excited to go to bed...hehe

oh well, til then for now.

toodles!

holding my heart out in my hand

Picture courtesy of LaraJade

It's about time u discover what's your worth.

To know what u really deserved,

Stop falling for the wrong person, over n over again.

Stop being a substitute,

Stop being denied of an answer that u deserved to know,

stop being a 'generator',

so that u can be that emergency 'just-in-case'.

If u can't be "the ONE" now, there's a slim chance u will ever be.

It's about time to stop being a jerk magnet.

Sometimes u r better off being alone,

than being hurt over n over again...

pining for someone, someone who is n never will be yours.

When i look at u, my heart breaks.

It makes me wanna pull u close n tell u that everything is gonna be ok.

I love u, it's time to love yourself too.

til then.

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Had the most awesome time with bunch of very awesome, enthusiastic people. They are from Catholic High School, the all-girls cheerleading team. Reminds me of my forgotten days back in high school, those times getting all ready to do new stunts, thinking nothing at all but only cheer, cheer and cheer.

Sigh. I think i'm getting old.
will post pictures soon.

oh ya, just when i was about to declare my long-awaited-well-deserved holiday break.

I.VE.BEEN.BITTEN.BY.THE.FLU/FEVER/COUGH/SORETHROAT.BUG
yes, it's rainbow colour cuz my face has different colour hues when it strikes.
NOOOOOO~ i wanna a break, but not by spending it on the bed!!!!

The Big Guy up there really do have a wicked sense of humour -__-"

til then.

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oh man, blogger always has this bad habit of fucking up my posts whenever i have the urge, or rather, already type a bigass long post.

sigh. It's already the last paper n my faith to hold on is waning. I'm already semi giving up on the stupid subject. Seriously, it's a pile of bullcrap that don't even make sense. Why am i always being subjected involuntarily into waves of nauseatic stupidity? I hate rubbish subjects. Call me arrogant and snobby i don't care. Life is too short to be wasted on stupidity, let alone spending precious time on something that u learn nothing. Irony isn't it?

I.NEED.A.FUCKING.BREAK

or a break to fuck

....

kidding.

but i do seriously need a break, and hols is coming soon. I can't wait :D
the time now is 4.37am, i'm still awake trying to cram stupid things into my head so i can give stupid answer to meet the idiot's stupid expectations.

oh em gee...
will have more happy posts, soon.

til then

Project Rail/ Heroes Premiere/ Prom the Musical

Updates!

hmm... sorry i've been away for far too long.. there has been a few projects i've been involved with.

1st and foremost, i was involved in the dance dept's 1st batch graduation final year project. it is like a showcase of choreography by three graduating seniors of mine. Kak nurul, my senior *love u lots* initially asked me to help her out by being one of her dancers in her work titled "Rail". Not knowing what to expect,I agreed.

The theme of her choreograhy is about relationships and making choices in the transitions of emotions between human relations. To the choreographer, Rail, as in the railway train track is analogous to human relationships. The people that we've encountered in our lives could accompany us by giving advices and walking hand in hand with us, regardless whom they may be, friend, sibling, lovers, foe, acquaintance of any kind, but the only person who can make decision to how we wanna lead our lives is ourselves. And that the railway track is always parallel, close side by side but never intersecting.

Rail also depicts the emotional transitions of relationship through the eyes of a woman.

I feel deeply for this choreography as it hits close to home. The emotional buildup heighthens and has very abrupt changes which one can relate closely to. I thank kak nurul for giving me the opportunity to be a part of this amazing experience, i also thank kak munie and abang sya (dancers) for being such a wonderful team together.

there are other 2 pieces by my other two graduating seniors- "Semalu" by Saliha Likun and "Panji Semerang" by Ma Nor Huda Mohd Mansor. "Semalu" is about the role of a woman in the society as a mother, sister, and wife, whose duty makes one woman strong yet gentle like the mimosa plant, which is called semalu in malay.

"Panji Semerang" is a dance drama which takes the plot of an old folk tale about a royal princess' mother has been assasinated, then she disguised herself as a man to escape and search for her fiancee at another land, which she comes back to her motherland and reclaim victory.

there's is a review by Dancer/choreographer, Bilqis Hijjas, who also came to watch the performance that day. click here

ok not gonna be too wordy... here's pictures!

crew hard at work!

super StageManagers: Aiwi n porpor

Rail Rehearsal

Semalu Stage Blocking

Panji Semerang stage blocking

Warming up

Green Room

Performance-trio




Best Friends

Relationships

The choreographer n me

Kak munie n mr.puppet

Abang Sya n me

<3>

Super ASM n me

From L: Lingling,BFFE,rikko, sya,sim,cindy,margaret,moi,norulle

Cast n crew!

Second batch: CLASSMATES!!

Love u all laaaa

<3rail<3>

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Next up.. i 'm also involved in Heroes Season 3 Premiere which was held in Pavilion KL not too long ago. We had to dress like the "new and improved" Claire Bennet, the immortal cheerleader who seem indestructible. Shana is the "uninjured" Claire Bennet in the Costa Verde High cheerleading attire. We had to role play in a short skit where a mutant prisoner breaks out and chases after Shana. It was pretty funny cuz we had to go on a screaming frenzy without laughing out loud. But all in all it was fun... here are more pictures!!

Charm Babes(sze wern is missing cuz she is being "cut in the forehead")

and then we all got "cut in the forehead" except for shana

Kick the baddie! :D

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Now in between all those projects, i helped out CW as co-choreographer in Sri KDU high school's Full Length musical production- Prom The Musical. It was a stage production in conjunction with their Performance and Awards Nite, something like a Grammy-awards event where the teachers present awards to deserving students who have contributed and achieved success throughout the school year. I felt that the awards event has created many opportunities for these promising children so that they have an aim for success.

Ok back to Prom the Musical...

Prom the Musical has a simple plot but backed up by fun and entertaining songs borrowed by famed broadway hits like Hairspray and Grease. The plot centers around 6 performing arts student preparing for their senior prom. During the preparation for their prom, they learn to deal with deep emotional issues and friendships are tested.

Due to time constraint, and final exams in the way, we only had 13 rehearsals to put everything together. This young people are so much fun to work with. The choreographers: Shan, Zen, CW n me, we were also tested to race against time to put up a great show, at the same time making sure that the cast n ensemble enjoyed the whole production process as well.

I deeply thank Mr.Zachary Wong for letting me be a part of this wonderful production. Mrs.Chan the headmistress of Sri KDU was a darling, this wonder woman who continuously insisted the best out of the students really made a difference to the whole production of the show. The cast and ensemble were amazing. They tirelessly trained for the production, having to come early in the morning and being so cooperative despite a few mishaps during rehearsals.

ok!Ok!.. not too wordy... i'll let the pictures do the talking.

us and wonderwoman,Mrs Chan.

me,mel,cw

during practice :)

Love u i do scene

Curtain Call

liyen n me

sze wern n me

me n shan

wan ru :)

the choreographers

my lovely coursemates who came to watch

the group picture that never turn out right.haha..

cw, where r u looking?

ok, now u r looking but everybody else isn't...

great...now shan is not looking -___-"

it's ok i still love u guys :D

actually my mom came too but i didn't manage to take a picture with her due to running up n down n being nervous downstage while these little daredevils take the stage. sigh. Anyway, thanx ma for coming to support, i appreciate it tremendously.

This is my first ever choreography effort, and it meant a lot to me that these wonderful young people actually staged what we (me n cw) envisioned for the choreography. I'm so happy and touched even if it only a span of less than a month working with these people. I think i'm gonna miss them loads.

Rock on, Sri KDU-ans!

til then!